Who calls me anymore? Only a few, I guess. But I miss that feeling of people just calling to talk, but no one has the time anymore because they're out partying (and there's no problem with that) . . . I just wish I could, too.



I kinda regret making that event on Facebook, the pool party/potluck thing. It's weird. I extremely "dislike" some people right now, and I don't even know if it's for the right reasons. Idk, it's just that some people do things that I think are so idoitic, annoying, or . . . whatever. UGH! Stop being so fucking stupid!


I hate you. I meant it when I said it to you, but you didn't know.



I lost a couple of friendships, that's the way I see it. But the other party doesn't think so, apparently. I'm so frustrated.

I think that's why I set up the event, to rekindle friendships and mend broken ones, to see people before they leave for what it would seem like forever, but I don't understand why I put in so much effort and recieve little gratitude. Fucking emotions.




I miss Europe. I miss that feeling of being ANYONE, starting over, FRESH. But excited as I am for college, I'm disappointed that I'll still be in San Jose. I need to get away from here . . . and from the people. Europe saved me from suffocating here. I got to meet new people who didn't know the words "hyphy" or "hella". I got to see some of the most . . . handsome guys I've ever seen before (in REAL LIFE).

I need another dance.
I need to get out.
I need to be fit.
I need to see new things.
I need you to understand that we're not friends.
I want YOU to know that you're nothing to me now.
I want you to know that everytime you bring up that incident, it makes me angry because it seems like you won't let it go. GET OVER IT ALREADY. FUCK.



*big sigh of relief*




I hope college is wonderful.